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Delayed blog

Thanks to my portable wireless keyboard, able to pen down some thoughts while doing my last active on call in the year of 2006.

Not far from the year TWO double O seven.

This year had been a very eventful year for me, right from the beginning, and exciting.

Having the thrill of my lifetime in a year. Unforgettable events would be:

· religiously practicing everyday for my finals, with tv serials and movies in-between.
"makan short case, sebelum tidur short case, weekend long case present, thanks study group ppls, tired - movies…"

· trembling for my final exam, and totally freaked out after my long case of lupus nephritis
"this patient really very mania about this whole exam thing, cerebral lupus, i think, nearly strike the fail button on this"

· almost freaked out having short case scheduled second last session, with my ‘favourite’ surgeon, mr. colon
"oh no, this guy again…"

· at last, getting the wonderful exam result…
"viva list out, not in distinction or borderline, pass kua…"

· the graduation night - wonderful partying with colleague and lecturers. no liquor involved.
"prof jamie: yep, girl just wanna have fun. definitely, other profs: lots of pretty exotic dance moves"

· the long holiday break
"rest at last, but got so much of thing to plan… not to waste my last real holiday in my lifetime before i retired"

· long australian adventure with my dearest, backpacking, exploring, enjoying…
"cold hard experience with warm cosy moments, greatest holiday so far"

· spending holiday at home in penang, going to french art festival, do some wall painting
"darn boring waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting.. working dateline delayed"

· trembling again as uncertainty of my placement for housemanship, real nightmare thinking the possibility of being sent to the borneo side. Not that those hospital are bad, but distance is factor.
"SP, alright!!"

· relieved that got hospital sg petani, third choice.
"SP, alright!!" (again)

· visited there, and got the shock of my life, comparing it to other hospital that i had attended, or seen before.
"SP hospital, oh no!?!"

· decided to go on without appealing, due to support from my gma, mom, dad and my dearest and found out that this hospital, is just another under-rated hospital in malaysia.
"SP hospital, not bad afterall"

· got a nice and cosy place to stay all and entirely thanks to shan and her dad.
"zzz zzz zzz zzz zzz zzz"

· first posting in surgery. had a jolly good time there as the MOs and specialists are friendly and supportive.
"Mr.Hari, Rashidee, Teoh, Dr. Shima, Junaidi, Lee, Salek, Fadzli - thanks for everything!!!"

· found out that the inside of the hospital is much more dynamic than what the outside portrays.
"this hospital exterior really needs repainting to match its interior"

· had lots of wonderful colleague that I can proudly consider as friends, HOs and MOs from surgery, ortho, medical and obgy. 
"nice to meet u guys kok leng, ng kiang, yah wui, seng ee, vinod (old friend), leah, rizal, sukhwin, prabahkar, medical junainah, aidil, cai, karthi, mani, kelvin, anaest tan, more more more….

· holding on to the learning curve, managed to performed 3 successful appendicectomies under supervision and multiple other small procedures.
"thanks, junaidi, for that personal record appendicectomy"

· realized my passion in surgical-based practice
"i just like the smell of scrubs, the cold air conditioned OTs, and lots lots lots of blood - just kidding bout the blood"

· got my salary for the first time, and able to part some for my parents. 
"now, what should i do with the money?"

· boldly made the decision to spend my whole life with my dearest.
"NNN, dear"

· honeymoon at bali, worthy eye-opening romantic holiday package with air asia.
"hot beaches, cold volcanoes, cool pool, mysterious building, wonderful time"

· got around to my second posting - obgy. busy but happy working under a well-organized team, thanks to Dr. Kuna
"i guess this is the only department in the whole malaysia, where houseman have post active call pm off"

Felt 2006 had been a long year, hopefully time will fly in 2007.

Just finished watching the whole set of DVDs on House MD both season, and now starting on Grey’s Anatomy. I really find Grey’s Anatomy as a more compelling realistic drama that matches the housemen’s life in a slightly exagerated way, minus the relationship part. Housemen being at the bottom of the food chain, the powerplay of big dogs up there, (in malaysia,at times, the race card sometimes come into play), bad housemen are really a nuisance to the whole team, the good ones may be good academically, but failed miserably in building a good dr-patient relationship, and to achieve the balance between being nice and skillful at the sametime, while juggling with boy-girl and family matters, sometimes can really drive one to the edge of human sanity. Luckily neurologically, i’m still ‘intact’ (not a valid term according to dr nk chew, ‘normal’ would be a better term)

To me, life’s short, no matter how you look at it.
Just going to live it to the fullest, and be thankful that I had one to begin with.

I know I am being tad-too-philosophical at this moment. Let’s give yourself a big mouth-wide-open yawn. thanx

Happy New Year 2007 to you all !!!

Os

Bali

Ho Ho Ho

Malaysia bodoh?

oh, how time flies (means happy times)… 2nd posting coming soon…

yes, I guess. my surgical housemanship is really enjoyable, in exact 360 degree contrast to my surgical posting during my medical student’s years are which is unforgettably unforgiving (except for the 3 weeks surgery with Dr. Kalai). I am sure Nadia, Shawin and Ai*tok*sah would have agree about our disastrous encounter with surgery in Final year.

Had the farewell dinner at Kafe Siam last week with specialist and MOs, combining monetary resources from 5 HOs leaving surgery in november, and each had to fork out a mind-blowing RM 106. well worth it, i guess. The quality and quantity of the food were mind-blowing as well.

Kind of cool, too, nowadays, as one of our surgeon, Mr. Teoh had became a celebrity surgeon as the famous newspaper up north ‘Kwong Wah Yit Poh’ had been praising him outrageouslt, as if he could resurrect the dead. Though not as great as described in the news, still, he is a great happy go lucky surgeon that gets its surgery done quick and snappy, and all his ward rounds were just as delightful as the dimsum breakfasts that I had together with him and my other chinese colleagues during Ramadhan.

Going to be ‘James Bond 007′ soon. Yes, my next posting as all the nurses described it, to be ‘James Bond’, while posing with thumb, index and middle finger extended - the solemn sign of massive VE in the future. Yes, VE is vaginal examination. Heard my next posting is rather strict but all the whole department are well-run by effective specialist and MOs.

To Kee Seng and Siang Lin, if you do read this, so sorry that I could not go yam cha with you guys. I was rushing home after work on Thursday. I’m sure you guys will have a safe flight back and do great, if not, better in the coming posting as well. Haven’t been meeting all my old coursemates lately, kind of missing them, too. Hmmmn… too mushy coming from someone macho like me (if you feel like puking, go ahead)

As for my dear colleague who had went over to Medicine, Tan, I really sent you condolence. Haven’t finished tagging already started active on-call. Heard it is a hell of a time over at medicine, I hope, with the new hospital, probably the condition would improve, greatly.

Just last 4 days ago, set my personal record of doing an appendicectomy assisted and supervised by Dr. Junaidi in 26 minutes. This is just my 3rd appendicectomy performed - still lacking in experience, but coming to the end of posting already. hope to get more surgical based training in my next posting.

Today is my last day in surgical department, second active on-call houseman. Then I am going to blood bank for 2 days intensive (but much more relaxing than ward work) training and taking a short leave to paradise before tagging in as double O seven.

photos.. photos… and more photos of HSP (not henoch scholein purpura)

mat rempit 1

moon 2006

bulle(shit)tin today

milestone in surgery

back at home in my lovely penang for 3 days…
- got the convo pics with family framed up and hung up high up the wall…
- morning walk and breakfast with dad…
- got into a darn unnecessary fight with my lovely dearest… now settled…
- did a 2 pages long explaination telling my mom that my frequency of coming back home is equal to or double the amount of stress at work when i’m in hospital…

had 2 articles readily typed in my palm when I am in SP, but somehow the absent minded LKP once again misplaced his palm, in some hidden pockets of some bags. In short, today i had to rant about other stuff.

since merdeka fever is just over, perhaps i will talk about independence day. zzz. boring. not really, it can be amusing or perhaps enlightening. Reading a few articles, especially the one by Azmi Sharom, really talks a lot about the lost idea of independence.

I believe the idea of being independent is really far from what we are striving all this years. we can say that we are free, free from danger, free from natural disaster, free from bird flu (such irony that all the countries surrounding us are getting it, and we’re scot-free), free from examination fee of SPM/STPM/PMR (budget 2006 if you care to care) and many more free stuffs and so.

Are we really free/independent/merdeka?

In reality, we are still pretty stupid in our own way. naive would be a better word. But i would like to keep my english vocabulary in low volume so that people that have problem with the words ‘composer’ or ’siblings’ can understand me.

recently an entry in the one of my junior’s blog about how much she was disgusted by the first year students in orientation for not knowing what the 2 simple words above meant, really outraged me. oops. forgive moi. made me mad. not really mad in a sense of insane. just a little bit disappointed.

then there was this entry of blog in medicinemalaysia.com for quoting her entry and cursing our current education system in lowering our internal chi in englishism. yes, our education system is a useless piece of garbage. that i agree. but this entry seems to hold up english as a supreme language and the chief language of all language. you good in english, you are A student. you bad in english, you rot in hell, mister… why study medicine, mister…
(i may have mistaken the isi tersirat in both the entry, if it does happen so, i wish to forward my apology. sincerely. i’m seriously apologizing)

if english is that ever powerful, they should have replaced levator labii superioris alaeque nasi with ‘the-thin-muscles-beside-the-nose-for-lifting-up-of-lateral-upper-lips’…

i believe english is just a medium. not even ours to being with. we so-called independent country are fighting a losing war. A losing war that only one can realize just 2 decades too late. Like it or lump it, a stupid (naive) majority of us is worshipping english, and hating (+looking down upon) our bahasa melayu, or other sub-dialects of chinese because only with english, you consider to have a good ’standard’ of education.

face the fact. english is dominating the world, more with the …

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